Our New Deck-The Hurdles to Getting a Nice Party Place

We decided to demolish the old deck and build a bigger, better and more inviting deck.  We have visions of throwing rocking parties where people will hang out on the deck having a great time. It's a great idea and I'm all for it and I can really visualize the good times ahead but the road to good times are littered with obstacles.  Rocks that I'm continuously tripping over.  Twigs and branches that are hitting me in the nuts.  You get the idea.  

First thing that comes to mind is the way I feel when the builders are working.  I like them.  They are really nice guys and I can see myself hanging out with them but I don't like working with them.  I mean, I should be out there if I have time but I feel like I'm in the way.  I also don't want to slow them down by having them show me what to do instead of just doing it.  I also feel that they feel like the "boss"is watching them work. Looking over their shoulder.  Not trusting them.  I mostly just end up trying to find things to do.  Work my part-time.  Go get material for them.  Or just hide in the house.  Crazy I know but it works for me.

Another thing that really makes my lower abdomen hurt is the cost.  Little things just keep adding up.  Plus the big things like the roof, which we didn't anticipate costing sooooo much, and the sliding doors.  I shouldn't mind but, and this is a HUGE but, the less money I have left after the project the less money towards a motorcycle.  I know selfish but so what.  The deal was whatever money is left after the project, I can use to get a motorcycle.  A Harley Davidson.  But I feel it slipping away.  No Softail Deluxe for me.  Ah, the feeling of wanting one will eventually pass.  I hope sooner rather than later.

And the big one that I absolutely hate is the tension and feeling of uneasiness it is creating between me and my wife.  That absolutely sucks.  But you know what, we work it out.  We both have a common goal.  Plus, I'm at scene and in command.